My Best Friend Was Living Her Other Part of her “Soul” in Kurt Cobain’s Body

When she visited his death place in Washington, he showed her where he bought drugs usually….

As souls in the universe, we can choose to complete life contracts under 2 bodies if we wish. The only thing that must remain constant within those 2 bodies is this: Our soul must complete the same soul contract with the same: life theme and life lessons. We choose when we will die, and it is our spirit guide’s job to make sure we stick it through from beginning to end. It’s funny, but after reading the book Journey of Souls, I got a better idea of how the triad between Elissa, Justin, and Kurt Cobain could exist and fit together so well emotionally. Every soul can also have a twin flame as well, and Elissa’s twin flame was something that existed in her body, but also existed as the same twin flame within Kurt Cobain’s body as well.

I could see similarities between Elissa and Kurt Cobain’s life themes and life lessons looking back now. They both decided to end their lives, which was unfortunate, since that was not what was supposed to be planned for both bodies (yet same soul). They both at the end of their lives were supposed to be Earth Angels who helped humanity ascend to the 5th dimension. Yet, they both committed suicide. Kurt Cobain was born in 1967 and died in 1994. Meanwhile, Elissa was born in 1980 and died in 2019. Their soul completed Kurt Cobain’s body’s life earlier than Elissa’s body’s.

Growing up, Elissa loved music, it became her life and blood. Same with Kurt Cobain. I knew that Elissa had dreams of becoming famous. She always spoke of her dreams of producing an album. This was especially prevalent before Justin’s death and before she garnered her wings on her back. “How am I going to make enough money to produce my album?” she’d cry. She wanted it more than anything to have her name out there, to people hear her music. Kurt Cobain was lucky enough to get an agent that really helped him out, and he blew out onto the music scene in the early 90s. He would perform with a group called Nirvana, and doled out such hits like “Smells Like Teen Spirit”. His style was alternative grunge rock, which was what Elissa’s genre was as well. I’d hear of Elissa’s music through her gofundme page. Her nickname was Warrior Girl.

What was even more interesting between the two was that both of them were assigned to be Earth Angels in this lifetime. Yes, Kurt Cobain was assigned to be an Earth Angel. Why else did he perform in front of crowds with his curled self and messy hair, a sweatshirt, all finished off by angel wings? Soon-to-be Earth Angels have the typical trait of desiring and loving angels. I could see the same outfit on Elissa every time she performed on stage. She would wear a revealing, tight outfit, with the makeup to go with it. It wouldn’t be an outfit without wings to top it off though. It was her way of her making her mark, her stage name of some sort.

Both of them loved angel wings and used it as part of their costume when performing. Both of them also had to give up a body part in their lifetimes in order to gain those wings. This included a removed appendix. Kurt Cobain lost his appendix at a young age, in his early teens, as did Elissa as well. Elissa’s story behind that was tougher though, considering her father had beat her to the point where she had to have it removed. Nonetheless, both of them did carry the health consequences of a removed appendix. It is a residual organ, yet it can still cause obvious health issues if one doesn’t take care of the themselves well enough. For him, it was the chronic stomach pain. Elissa had developed Crohn’s Disease, which causes inflammation of the digestive tract, and hence, the same stomach pain.

Elissa and Kurt both had depressive episodes throughout their lifetimes. You could usually see it with the way he performed live, he didn’t necessarily show the most joy and enlightenment. With Elissa, several themes had gotten in the way of her happiness. She wasn’t happy with her abusive father. She wasn’t happy with not getting noticed for her music. For both Kurt and Elissa, they both were very unhappy with the way their chronic stomach pain held them back from enjoying life.

As a way of coping, they both turned to drugs to deal with the pain. Kurt Cobain had a reported heroin addiction that the media had caught onto. He experimented with marijuana from time to time, hoping it would heal with stomach pain. Elissa turned to alcohol during her teenage years and had a stint with meth during a crucial time in her life in her early twenties. For both of them, the suicidal urges would creep up at several peaks in their lives. What kept them both going was music. Music was what kept both of them alive during those downfalls.

Of course, when Kurt Cobain had committed suicide that fateful day when he shot himself with a gun, the world caught on and the media reported this story to no end. A rockstar had just killed himself. His wife Courtney Love had just arranged to have him enter and stay at a drug addiction rehab recovery facility not too long ago, and now to find him dead by gunshot. A suicide note was left beside him, quoting Neil Young by stating that “It is better to burn out than to fade away.” Traces of heroin were also found inside his body. This was in 1994, when Elissa was only 14. She was at that age where she would start riding the same emotional rollercoasters that Kurt felt too, but when she heard the news, it stung her heart. Almost as though she was losing “a part of myself”.

I heard comments about the ways in which Kurt contributed to her music inspiration throughout her life. Continually, she developed music that left remnants of Kurt’s music themes. She started wearing the wings when she started to perform live onstage at local pubs and bars, local events. This was because she was adorned with the idea of being the soon-to-be earth angel, a life theme that Kurt couldn’t carry out, but maybe she could. Kurt suddenly became her mentor for music, as she started plastering her bedroom walls with Kurt Cobain posters. When Justin came into her life in her mid twenties, he constantly encouraged her music career by buying Nirvana gifts and merchandise for her. As a roommate, I remember her framed black and white Kurt Cobain poster of him in his typical stance, sitting there with a guitar, shoulder length hair slightly messy, strumming his guitar in his oversized sweatshirt.

More interestingly enough, I found out certain things about Kurt Cobain through Elissa. For one, he was a rainbow child with a rainbow aura. She mentioned her visit to his death place in Washington had a sacred element to it. His energy had guided her to his living space, and he showed her where he bought his drugs from. “I felt him walk beside me” she mentioned to me. But more so, she also commented that “He took away my urge to kill myself. I felt happiness.” She also added, “He is in a happy place right now.” Kurt Cobain’s spirit was up in heaven being a teacher and an angel. To capture all the spiritual feelings and thoughts, she decided to take a picture of her hugging Kurt’s tree in his backyard.

Every time Elissa had a dream about Kurt Cobain, there’d be at least several other fans or figures trying to hover over for his attention. He always gave her priority and paid attention to her first. “He asked me how I was doing,” she said of a vivid dream. “I replied that I was upset about my myself. Yet, he said that he really liked my stuff,” she said. Kurt was always there to provide her with that extra bit of encouragement to live out her life soul contract to its fullest potential in those ways. It was probably because he couldn’t have lived it out fully in one body, but he would have loved to have seen it played out in her. He became a rock star, yet he didn’t necessarily become the earth angel that humanity and god had planned out.

When Justin killed himself, Elissa started noticing patterns between Kurt and Justin’s death. She instinctually recognized patterns in which Justin’s body wasn’t found until 3 days after his suicide, much like Kurt’s. “Kurt Cobain’s spirit came to me right after Justin’s death,” she mentioned. “Today’s the day that Kurt killed himself 24 years ago, and it’s within the same week that Justin killed himself,” she noted the first week of April 2018. She knew that Justin found Kurt in the spirit world.

Justin eventually became Elissa’s “wings” on her back as a spirit. As her twin flame, and the one whose life she had to save in order to gain her wings, she was to play out her role as Earth Angel now to society. Kurt Cobain’s spirit was observing from afar, and this life venture would hopefully play out a little different. “Is she going to live up to the role of Earth Angel she was assigned to?” I wondered and mentioned to fellow Earth Angel Sonja Grace over the phone. She responded that “The Angels will tell her to do her part! There are timelines to everything!”

Unfortunately, she got caught up in a lot as well. It was the blend of grieving the death of a loved one right there, having to build up her self-confidence and sense of self-worth with a new character attached to herself, and having the added pressure from hearing signs and signals from spirits on the other side. Her delaying her job in advertising herself as an Earth Angel eventually led god to give her a concussion. That shook her up and was the final marker for her to take her life. She just couldn’t take being this interdimensional and having too much thrown at her. She missed the other side as well, where Justin and Kurt already were. She wanted to join them.

In the end, Elissa took her life as well. She had signed herself into the suicidal unit of CAMH and said goodbye to this life by overdosing on prescription pills. In soul contracts, humans are still provided with free will, although spirits will enter into ones life to play tricks on them, move objects, send messages, and more. She ultimately decided to use her free will to make the decision to take her own life. Her soul energy can be found up there in its complete form with Justin, Kurt Cobain, and Elissa Barclay now. This soul form has experienced and encapsulated all the life trials and tribulations these three individual lifetimes have gone through.